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I like soundtracks more than songs, mainly because songs sometimes have a predetermined meaning and hard to relate to myself.  

Duel of the Fates (Star Wars I)

This music brought out the thought inside me that I wanted to keep it hidden from myself. It reminded me the struggle inside me trying to decide what the best decision is, and how do you defined it as the “best”. The music felt confusing with the different type of instrument. It makes me feel the confusion within me as all of my thoughts rush through my head at the same time.

The Arena (Star Wars Episode II)

This music is one of my favorite. There are two main parts to the music. The first part has a much softer and calm sensation. It makes me remind of times when I am happy. It feels like everything doesn’t matter at the moment, and there is only me and my thoughts. I sometimes try to release the pressure coming from I life, I will try to forget all that matters and learn to let go, so that I would not have to hold on to the heavy loads. The second part is a much more intense comparing to the first part it was like all that I try to let go came back and I have to choose between what I want and what I must.

Anakin’s dark deeds (Star Wars Episode III)

This music is extremely depressing and angry. It sounds like as if the world is coming to an end. Chaos rains through our world. This is how I sometimes feel even in my happiest moment. There are always secrets between all of us. Hostility grows between all of us. I always felt like no one can understand. It also reminded me of every time that I was so angry that I wanted to kill someone, but could only put away this anger somewhere else and could not let it free from myself.

Never know, never listen, don’t care.

Have too much of everything, useless.

No more changes, already too late.

Chase after an impossible dream. delusional.

Disagree with everything everyone believes in.

Do no want help from others.

I don’t care much about life. Everything seems to be the same all the time, nothing really changed. I like the dense cloud in the morning; it makes me feel calm and peaceful. I haven’t changed much from the day I was born; I never liked changes. I won’t bother to tell you why, that is just the way it is.  I don’t really want to say anything about myself. What am I even doing here?

In one of my favorite show called Star Gate Atlantis. This show is about an expedition team found the lost city of the ancients—the specie that evolved into human—in another galaxy called the Pegasus Galaxy. The expedition team encountered specie called the Wraith, which feed off humans. In the episode called Allies, A Wraith called Michael—who one had been turned into a human in an experiment to turn all Wraiths into humans—came to trade. In the show he mentioned that how humans and Wraith are not so different. The only difference is that they are higher up the food chain. Michael pointed out that Wraith is not the villain or the bad guy in this war between humans and the Wraith. To the Wraith humans are nothing more than just food and any living thing must eat. I found this idea interesting. In the show the Wraith is the portrayed as the antagonist mainly because they feed on humans; they put their hand on your chest and suck out all off you life—means you will die of aging in ten seconds. Also they tried to figure out where Earth, or as they call it their new feeding ground, is and how to get there because in their galaxy there are less human everyday. We would think that it is evil because we would be dead, but in their point of view they also require food or they die. Would we sit around and allow us to starve to death just to preserve the lives of other organism on this planet. Just like the Wraith when humans need food they hunt, and there aren’t any food around they will spread to other places. Even today we are exhausting the very last bit of natural recourses that we have on this planet. Humans are chopping down trees—which also is alive—and over hunting fish, crabs, lobsters, and other things. We put breed animals and crowd them into a small room or cage. We use rats for experiments on unknown chemicals. In this world we are the bad guys.

One hot summer day, I heard my phone ringing. I picked up the phone wondering who could be calling on an early Sunday Morning. Then I heard one of my friends, yelling at me. He asked me if I would want to go to LA with a bunch of his other friends.  I could not recognize who it was but I though it would be fun. Over the phone he gave me the address which to meet the rest of them then I picked up my backpack and unload the school book that I have inside and putted in a few bags of chips and some cheese and crackers and left the house. It was about nine in the morning I wasn’t even totally awake yet. The address was only a few blocks away so I walked there. When I got there I didn’t know anyone, but I got into the car. We had a thirteen how ride. During the ride I saw a lot of things. IN the first two hour of the ride everything was nice. I saw a lot of families in their SUVs with their maps finding out exactly where they were actually going and some fighting over weather they were going the right way. Then I saw some unfortunate family where the baby just threw up on his mother and the mother was trying to clean up the mess. About five second later the baby’s older brother started to cry and wanted to get his toy that was in the front seats. The mother finally lost her temper and started yelling. I sat there and looked at all the people that have passed by us until it got dark. It was about eight at night. All of my “friends have fallen a sleep—except for the driver of course. I decided to have a snack, so I took out my chip and enjoyed it along with my live TV. At night the road was even more beautiful that it was in the morning. When I looked outside I saw two lines of lights. On my left there were the white lights and on my right and also in front of me there were the red lights. I looked at these light and though about where were these people going. Then I came to realize that how busy we all are even when we are not working. We ran out of gas about three miles from our destination. When we went to the gas station we realizes that we did not have any money with us. We knew that we have to turn back but we did not have enough gas to go home. I just finished my bag of chips, as I was reaching for my second bag of chips I found my fifty dollar bill from school. We got the gas and we left. I was really tired when I got home so I just went straight to bed.

I chose the third picture. This showed a picture. The picture is what outside the window. This reminds me of our world today; we are being blinded and can only see part of the truth. It also reminds me of Brave New world; where everyone have been blinded by the government to do what the government want them to do and believe everything they say. The board and represent the government and the picture represent the fake reality that has been pulled over our eyes. When I look at the picture the first thing that came to my mind is what could be behind the picture. Is it what the picture showed us or is it a truth that I am not supposes to know? This curiosity is what driven us to enlightenment through out human history. I think that the artist’s message is to tell us that everything might not be what it seems to be.

The word ideal have different meanings to everyone. To me, an ideal life is a simple life. The simplier the better. IN my ideal life I would pretty much like to be alone, so I can forget about the busy world and enjoy the peace and quiet. I alread know how to cook so I would most likely to make my own meal instead of eating out. I will even plant my fruits and vegetables in my back yard. I would have potatos, and oranges--my two favorite food. Well ofcourse I will have to buy meat in some store, I am not about to have a bunch of cow in by back yard. I like to have a small house. Maybe one bed room  and one bathroom. It just have to be large enough for me since I will spend a lot of time in it. I would have a job that pay just enough money so that I can pay my bills, and supplies. A pet would be great in my life. I love to have a tank of fish. So I can spend my free time taking care of them, and also taking caring of my plants.

Track 1: Marmalade, Reflection of my life

The line “oh, how they fill my mind all my sorrows” reminds me of the scene where Spade have just heard about the death of Archer and their friendship dying. “i'm changing, arranging, i'm changing i'm changing” I connected this line to how Spade is planning out what is he going to do after the death of Archer. I connected the line “everything around meg the world is a bad place, a bad place terrible place to live” to the situation Spade is in where everyone is dangerous to him.

Track 2: Tommy Roe, Dizzy

I connected this song to Bridget. The line “Girl You've got control on me,cuz I’m so dizzy I can't see” makes me think of how Bridget uses her to get the information that she want from people. I connected the line “But it’s so hard to talk to you with fellows hangin’” round You all the time” to how Bridget this skill became her specialty in the book. The line “I’m going round in circles all the time” with the relationship of Bridget with all of the men she have met, and how she keep her secrets from others.

Track 3:Percy Sledge, When a man loves a women

The line “Can't keep his mind on nothing else” make me think of how when a person sees what he wants the lose control of himself. “If she is bad he can't see it” this line reminds me of Bridget and how her charm and beauty covers her true self. The Line “If she is playin' him for a fool He's the last one to know” makes me remind of how Bridget uses the men she know.

Track 4: Mary Hopkins, Those were the days

This song connects to the life of Sam spade. The first line is “Once upon a time, there was a tavern Where we used to raise a glass or two” I connected this line to Spade’s personality where he likes to drink. I connected the line “We'd fight and never lose” to how Spade’s eagerness to solve the case. Then the line “Just tonight, I stood before the tavern Nothing seemed the way it used to be” reminds me of Spades consistency and his simply life style.

Track 5: Carpenters, Desperado  

The line “These things that are pleasin’ you Can hurt you somehow” relates to how all the antagonist tries to get total victory but some how the never get away with it. In the line “The sky won’t snow and the sun won’t shine It’s hard to tell the night time From the day” it is like in the book where you don’t really know who is the bad guy and it is never easy to see what they are up to. “Now it seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table but you only want the ones that you can’t get” is like everybody is trying to get something for them either get it from harming others or just doing what they do, they always try to get more.

1. If you could be a fly on anybody's wall, on whose wall would you perch? Why? What would you do with the information?

If I could be a fly on anybody’s wall, I would choose to be on the wall of George Lucas’ room. Then I could see all of the story board and picture of the movies that he will be making.

2. What is your favorite piece of art? Describe what it looks like. Why do you like it so much? How does it make you feel? Does it tell a story? Have symbolism?

For some reason, I do not have a piece of art. Mostly because I just can’t stand there long enough to understand it. When ever I go to a museum, I would always follow my friends around and wait to go home.

3. If you could choose your parents, how would they be? Describe how they look, act, and parent. What do they do (for work, hobbies, etc)?

I think that I would like my parents to be the parents that I have now. My characteristics, hobbies, physical appearance all came from them and if I change they than I would also have to change. I don’t really do well with changes and I like the way I am.

4. If you could live in any decade, which one would it be and why? ELABORATE. What opportunities would you take advantage of in said decade?

If I could live in any decade, I would still choose the one I am in right now. Like I said before, I don’t do well with changes. Also, I think that this is on of the greatest time in history. We still live in an age of discovery where there are a lot of things that we still don’t understand; it is this curiosity that has driven us to improve ourselves. This is also a time where technologies are advancing. We have HD TV, computers, MP3s, videogames, and all these other things that some might consider as a necessities. I don’t think that they are necessities, but they do make life a bit more interesting.

5. If you could/had to be any Disney character, who would it be and why?

If I had to be a Disney character I would be Donald Duck. I realize that no one understand what Donald Duck said in the TV shows. I think that fits my characteristic because sometimes I feel like I don’t want to share my feelings as much and people just don’t understand why.

6. There is a difference between the moral man and the criminal in that the moral man has a legitimate reason to steal. Support or refute this idea (that a person's objectively bad deeds can be justified by the subjectivity of their life). 

I don’t quite understand the question. Do you mean that a person can do something bad base on the situation? If so then I think sometimes is true. Sometimes when you have no choice then the will to survive will take over and you would do anything to keep yourself alive.

1. What is your favorite book?

I don’t have a favorite book. I think that all books aren’t that different. It depends on how you look at the book.

2. If you could/had to live in any country besides the United States, where would it be?

If I have to do it then I would choose China (Hong Kong), because most of my relatives are there. If I could then I would want to live in England. The reason I chose England because my cousin actually lives there and she said that it is pretty nice there.

3. Who is your favorite superhero?

 I don’t have a favorite superhero, mostly because I don’t what cartoons and read comics. 

5. Is life a matter of reality or is it all just based on perception?

I think that life is about reality. Reality is the truth and without the truth we would be living in an imaginary world.

6. Is it better to be too hot or too cold?

I think that it is better to be cold. It is really uncomfortable when it is hot, you get sweaty and it is all sticky. When it is cold all you have to do is to put on a jacket and you will be find.

7. Which is better: to get in a car accident that isn't your fault and lose a leg or to get into a car accident that is your fault and kill an old lady?

It would be better that I lose a leg and it wasn’t my fault. It is better to know that you have done the right thing even if you lose something trying to do the right thing.

8. Do you believe that pain and suffering is a necessary part of life?

Pain and suffering is necessary part of life. Pain and suffering is what brings out the happy part of life. If everything is perfect then you won’t realize that it is perfect.

9. Is animal testing acceptable?

I think that animal testing is only acceptable if it is necessary for survival and the animal will not be in pain.

10. Do you believe that ghosts exist?

I don’t believe in ghosts. Something would have happened if there was.

11. Do you believe that you can never have too much of a good thing?

If you have too much of a good thing that you won’t know it is a good thing because it is all the same.

12. Do you believe that school is the best way to make a person smarter?

To make a person smarter doesn’t mean that they have to go to school. If so people live in time or place that doesn’t have school would all be stupid.

14. Do you believe that war can be justified?

I do think that war can be justified, only if you are doing the best for most of the people on the planet.

15. If you could switch your gender, but it had to be permanent, would you?

Even if I could, I would not. I think that it is hard to understand the other possible side of a person.

16. Do you think you are anyone's favorite person in the world?

I think that almost every person is their parents favorite, and I guess that it is the same for me.

Mostly everyone on this planet must have a hobby or passion for something. This hobby or passion is the part in our life that doesn’t change much and also what makes life less boring.

For some reason, I really enjoy playing with Lego. Maybe it is because that is what I spend most of my child on. I remembered that I would stay home with my boxes of bricks and parts and building something—mostly spaceships—while all of my friends went to their friends house to play the newest video games—I actually still do. When you are building with Lego, you are not just playing; it also allows you to think about the things that you did wrong and how to make corrections. When you are building with Lego, You are no longer ion reality, you have gone to a place where you imagination is the in control of this completely new universe. It is hard to have a time to relax and take a vacation from this world where everyone is in a hurry. When I am playing with my Lego I find myself to have broken free of this chain of the modern world, so I can do what I want and not what I was told.  It is like taking a vacation without leaving your house—now that’s a great idea.

Some people laugh at me when they know that I still play with Lego because they think that it is kids stuff, but I think different. Lego are just like art, you can express your feelings and personality through your creations, just like drawing and painting. If you think that Lego are stupid, you better also laugh at those famous artists.

Building with Lego also helps you with skills that you will need in the “really world”. When you are building something big you can’t just go right away. You must have a plan of what are you going to do and how you are going to do it, or else you will find out that nothing will fit together. One of the most important things I had learned form building with Lego is patience. I once bought this set that have about five to six thousand pieces in it. It took me almost three weeks to finish building the set. The reason it took me so long is that I was impatience and rushed through each step. I find myself missing some steps and I have broken it twice because I was so eager to get it done. I realize there are things that I can’t rush. You must calm down to take each step slowly and no to get into a hurry or else it will just leads you to failure.

I feel like that Lego isn’t just a toy, and it is a portal that leads you to a world where you are the king/Queen. In this place you make all the rules, and this is a special place where you can call your own.

Since there are so many different characteristic in a person, it is really hard to tell what kind of animal a person would be. I haven’t really thought of what type of animal would I be before, but I would say that it is the Praying Mantis—not exactly an animal it is a bug of some sort.

            I said that I would be the Praying Mantis because I am a really patient person. I never rush through any of my work; I will take as long it takes to make it perfect. I also like to wait for things to come to me instead of chasing after it. Sometimes I believe in destiny and if I am destined to have something it will come to me. This is just like how the Praying Mantis hunt. When it is hunting, it will stan still and the color of its body will help him blend in with the surrounding--camoflouge, I really like camoflouge too--and it will just stand still and wait for his prey.

Childhood fear is a really common but unique thing. Childhood fear mostly comes from bad or even horrifying events that happened to us. For me, the thing that I fear the most would be dolls.

            I never like dolls—or action figures—in my childhood. They have eyes never closes and it is always staring at you as if they were obsess about you, and their inhuman faces—even when they are suppose to look like human—, that stiff body, and that unfriendly smile. My fear of dolls got to me the first time when I saw a movie called Small Soldiers. In that movie these dolls that are controlled by advance computer chips are running around the street and imprisoning people in their house. Also in other movies they always use dolls as the evil character which they are tired of being step on and throw away by little kids that they started to rebel against human. For quite a while I wouldn’t even get near dolls or look at them in their round blue plastic eyes as if I might offend them and they will kill me when I go to sleep. It was really hard for me to keep away from these dolls in my childhood since most of my friends at that age have at least one or two. So whenever they ask me to go over and play I would say no just to avoid the dolls.

            When I look back at this fear, I realize how ridicules I was to be afraid of dolls. I missed out a lot of valuable opportunities to hangout with my friends just because I didn’t want to get close to dolls. This fear of mine have a down side but it also have a good side. Now I know that I should not let fear to hold me back. I should be strong and to fight back against this fear. That is the only way that you can get over it.